I'm having a bad bad flu attack and had stayed home last Monday & Tuesday, caught a fever and my head felt like bursting out of its place.. Nevertheless, these last few days, I really enjoyed staying at home, despite the flu and all.. Looking after Paco and playing with him. It was really really great, and when I left home for office this morning, I really felt like crying leaving him saying "Mama don't go.. Stay home.."..

On my way to the office I (again) began counting.. expenses vs revenue and all, I really want to quit working, be a stay at home mom, and look after my son like my mom used to do with me and my bro. It was really nice to come home after school to find your mom at home, telling her all the stories, all the bad teachers, naughty classmates,.. I want my son to grow up in that condition.

Last night I read an article in parenting magazine, a real true story, about a mom with a master's degree and she quit work just to be with her sons, stay at home, be a freelancer.. and I thought then, hey, I could do that too.. I could be a book translator, or anything.. but then again, I haven't found the strength (or is it will?) to muster up my courage to quit, and stay at home.

I made it my new year's resolution this year, but no result yet..

I just want to go home and stay with Paco..